Saturday, January 30, 2010

still im having trouble with this concept...

i still cant get over how suicide is a selfish act. please if someone can explain it to me i may change this thinking. but i dont seem to understand. my life is my life. it does not belong to you. if i were to take something of mine that belongs to me is that selfish? of course not. its silly that anyone thinks that. it belongs to me. if i have a book or a game and it belongs to me and i destroy it... well thats my perogative. no one can say anything. its mine. no one will give it a second thought. now if i take something of yours... and destroy it... thats different. its not mine to begin with. correct? if i take your life... im being selfish. im taking something all to myself. you are not mine. i have no right to take you. now with that said... if i take my life... how is that selfish of me? i do not belong to you. therefor you have no say whatsoever of what i do to my life.

when was the last time you heard of someone killing themselves purely because they hated something they did to themself. just them. i know i havent.

people i know who are suicidal or have these tendencies... are because of child abuse (something they have not done to themselves) bullying ( again they did not bully themselves) verbal abuse, depression caused by such things or even rape.
please tell me when the last time you heard of someone raping themself. please. i would love to know.

because i know lots of people who were raped who feel like its their fault of course it is not. had these things not happened by other people... then said "suicidal" person would not be feeling these things.

see? my point is suicide is not a selfish thing. its when we have tried everything we possibly can and feel there is no other option. we try therapy or writing in journals talking to people nothing seems to help. and the last possible thing to do is end it all. if the people around you truely cared about you at all then they would not say things like how selfish of her to do that? why would he do such a thing? they would know the pain they have gone through and let them go.

sometimes thats all these others need to do. is let them go.
let us go.


you yourself stop being selfish...





and let me go.